Recently, my daughter came up to me and said "Why do I have such fat legs? I just hate them!" I was in shock. She is 7 years old and her legs are far from being fat. Immediately I told her that she doesn't have fat legs and that they are beautiful legs, and that even if someone has big legs, they are still beautiful because that is the way God made them. And that the most important thing about her legs is that they work and take her from place to place.
As the words came out of my mouth, it hit me. I have been an awful example. I was giving her advice that I haven't been following. I'm not thin, but I'm not fat. I suppose I fall somewhere in the middle. But, like many many girls, I have always struggled with accepting myself as I am. Every year around this time, I make a resolution to lose weight. I start the year off exercising every day, extreme dieting, and I drop weight but it doesn't last because I torture myself. And how long can you really live that way? So next I go to the opposite side and eat all the things that I've deprived myself of, but then I feel sick with myself and the cycle starts over. It's exhausting. It's depressing and it's far from healthy.
You see, I've been doing this completely ridiculous thing, that too many girls do, where I compare myself to women with completely different body types. I was looking at the "perfect" bodies of models and celebrities and wishing for the same body. Somewhere along the line, I began to believe that this is what beauty looks like, but that's not true. Beauty takes many shapes and this is just one of them.
This year I am done with it. I am never going to be a size 0, and I'm so tired of torturing myself and hating my body. I tired of obsessing.
I know it's not going to be easy, but my new years resolution is to love my body.
When I look in the mirror, instead of allowing the internal bashing, I'm going to force myself to think about the things I love about it. Instead of hating what my body looks like, I am going to be thankful that it is healthy and functions properly. This year, I refuse to use the word FAT to describe myself. I need to love myself, not only for me but for my daughter. She needs to see that being healthy is the more important than being skinny, and that all shapes are beautiful.
The crazy thing is that no matter how thin or thick I have been, I have always had the same point of view. So I choose to LOVE my body no matter what and because I love it, I will take good care of it. I will eat to nourish and I will exercise to strengthen. God has blessed me with this able body. Who am I too deprive it or poison it or hate it? We are all different and we are all beautiful.
Remember, beauty comes in all shapes and sizes.
If you are in the same place that I have been, please, join me on my journey. I would love to hear your story. You can comment or email me at email@example.com.
Happy New Year! Take Care and God Bless!